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(2) The Diagnosis

I remember sitting in my office upstairs, still in my active wear from our early morning walk, I was keen to start work and did not expect to see the Neurologist on Facetime later that morning. I expected a call from her to confirm results of a blood test I was waiting on, but I had already seen the Neurologist in person, with Marcus for the MRI and Lumber Puncture results, and she had said it was not MS, or any of the big diseases. I was relieved as I'd convinced myself it was something really bad and terminal. 

My neurologist took my results to a monthly meeting of neurologists where she presented my case as she was baffled as to what it could be. It was agreed that it was in fact MS, so she got me on FaceTime to tell me the diagnosis. The bloods were clear of anything. 

I was shocked, I called Marcus in tears and he come straight home. We went for a walk to our local (The Palais) which was 2.5km away. We were in disbelief and discussed what this actually meant. 

To be honest, we knew very little about Multiple Sclerosis and had no idea it would change our world so drastically. 

At the time, I was working full-time, I had gone from Recruitment Lead with a team of 10, to Project Managing the implementation of a new recruitment and onboarding solution. It was demanding, stressful and workdays often turned to all nighters. This was everything the MS professionals told me not to do. 

When the project come to an end, I was promoted to Management level, this was a big deal, and I felt extremely privileged that my hard work and dedication had paid off. I felt like I was in the prime of my career and I had more to give and places to go. But I still had this disease, and it had different plans. 



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